I remember I started my Newgrounds account because I wanted to be an artist. I was inspired by Lazymuffin, Oney and HotDiggedyDemon. When I initially started it in 2008 I was already making promises of content to come, content I clearly never delivered.

I realize now I was someone who liked to dream, more than actively attempt what I was dreaming about. I would fantisize about being an artist, I would fantisize about being a musician. I want to make content, but I didn't put in any effort to actually trying to accomplish those goals. I was all talk, I posted concept "art" or a script and then completely abandoned any project I was working on.

I dont consider myself an artist anymore, in order to be an artist I have to actually create. Im just a dreamer. if you dont actively try to create, you aren't an artist either. I lied to myself all these years, calling myself an artist and I notice some people do the same. Both I and them remain unfulfilled. Very few people actually persue what they want it seems. Im not an artist, but I want to be. It starts with not lying to myself. I lied to myself to avoid work, I would rather dream than make what I longed for a reality.

I really am passionate about this field of work. I want to create stories and worlds, I want to make interesting characters. I want to affect my audience, make them feel emotions. I feel I can do that but I need to actually put effort into doing it. Im not lying to myself anymore. Im not an artist, but im going to try my damnedest to make sure I become one. Im done with promising content. I draw, and study actively. I wont upload anything until im truely satisfied with my work. Im not abandoning projects anymore, I will see something to the end. I've wasted so many years day dreaming, I dont want to be a dreamer anymore.